Watashi No R

While heading up the stairs to meet the roof,

Readying to remove my shoes,

I see him with glasses covering his eyes

I interject, a passerby

“Don’t do it!” I cry

I’m not sure why I spoke to him right there

Honestly, can’t say that I care

Partly pissed he beat me to the deed,

But I swallow my selfish greed

He weaved a story as old as time

Nevertheless, still genuine

“Oh, I love him with all of my heart

God, I want to fall in his arms”

I can’t believe you’re pressed over something so silly

Your reasoning is flawed and all I’m standing here in awe

Want “love,” so what? I think it’s ‘bout time that you grew up

Smell the roses you’re not broken till they steal all you love!

“I appreciate your kindness,” he said to me

The boy with glasses left me all alone to think

“Guess I’ll do it today,” thinking, as I

Take off my shoes, head to the sky

There I met a boy so short in size

Calling out to him, I meet his eyes

A lonely loser, he had called himself

He’s known as “weakling” “scrawny” “elf”

“Everyone ignores all that I say

All I had was taken away”

I can’t believe you’re pressed over something so silly

Your reasoning is meek and weak… so what if you’re a freak?

At home you’ll greet a family so selfless and sweet

A meal is waiting stop this fretting go on and eat!

“Now that you mention it, I am pretty hungry”

Then the boy so short left me all alone to think

As the days pass on, more people came my way

I talked them through it all and helped their minds to change

But my pain remains inside

I have to lie and say I’m fine

“Their hurt is worse than mine…”

Finally, I found somebody who’s seen

All of the problems life gave me

He wore a jacket as gray as stone

And like the others, all alone…

“Every day at home is pure hell,

So I thought I’d give my farewell

To all the scars and wounds I’ve gained”

That’s what the new boy to me claimed

I’m not sure why I spoke to him right there

Honestly, can’t say that I care

I looked at him then meeting his eyes

And begged to him what I’d call a “lie”

“Don’t do it” I cry

Ah, who am I to tell him that? I don’t have the right!

I don’t know, should I stay or go? I’m at a crossroads

“Just leave!” I screamed your grief is much better left unseen

I cannot bear to sit and stare, your pain is killing me

“I won’t do it today,” he said to me

The boy wearing grey left me all alone to think

Nobody’s here today to change my mind

It’s just me, the lone passerby

No one ever came to tell me no

No one ever cared for me so

Taking off my jacket gray as stone

My glasses left sitting at home

So now, I, the boy so short in size

Is gonna either fall or fly